ever since I fell out of love with you, I fell back in love with me

Being with you changed my brain chemistry and now I spend hours upon hours rewiring. Not a day goes by that I don't thank God for separating us.

Sometimes I sit by his side and think about how ironic it is that I was sent everything you claimed I'd never find – just because you couldn't be it. How ironic it is that I lost the me that could have easily handled what I'm given now. The me that somehow allowed herself to be broken by you.

My friends say there's always fondness left for people we used to love, but I feel nothing sweet or fond when it comes to you. It hasn't been bitter in ages, either. It's just – regret. Knowing he was out there all along while I was busy trying to survive with you.

I think if an older me had shown up in the middle of the night and told me I had a shot with him, that I'd have dropped everything. What a traitorous bitch. Sometimes I hear 2018 kellz laughs in the background because she had the truest comment when she matched him on tinder way back when.

He makes me believe in fate more than I ever did. There's too many coincidences in our lives.

Be First to Comment

Komentariši